This Dream Changed Everything
Then I thought, In dreams you must confront what you are afraid of.
I was on the prow of a Thai fishing boat.
The sun baked on the gleaming wood and I felt very hot.
The boat slipped through the waters at a crashing speed.
I was terrified of the azure depths below the boat.
Below me.
I stood at the point
on the edge
it seemed
in flashes
that I was hovering over the water
without the boat.
Then I thought, In dreams you must confront what you are afraid of.
I knew I must jump into the water and my terror increased. After a vigorous tussle with panic, I forced myself to plunge in.
I thought, I am going to die.
But in the next second I was under the water.
I thought, I must remember that it is no different.
Everything looked and felt the same as above. Except it was cool. I was happy. It was a perfect peace.
A red car floated past, with me in it, wearing a red shirt, red lipstick and a gold necklace, like in a French ad for a spirit or a perfume. The necklace formed a word.
Then I thought, Remember what that says, it is the key to everything.
But I cannot remember.