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We Can Be Heroes—Just for One Day

At times, I leap up and wrap myself around his neck like a scarf and he holds me lightly, perfectly.


David Bowie shows up to a party thrown by a mutual friend who works in the fashion industry. We are both younger but there’s still 24 years between us. Also, as is now the case in waking life, he is dead.

The party is in a floor-through apartment in Soho. Young people, mostly girl-women, dance around without much commitment. He says to no one in particular that he loves dancing. I volunteer to dance with him.

My bra is awkwardly unhooked at the back and wrapped restrictively around my shoulders, making moving difficult. I pull it through the sleeve of my sheer silk shirt and my breasts are clearly visible—but I do not care. Now I am freer and we begin to dance with purpose and intensity, as if we are in a choreographed modern piece. I am amazed at how good he is. At times, I take his entire weight. At times, I leap up and wrap myself around his neck like a scarf and he holds me lightly, perfectly. We throw each other about with complete confidence and delight.

(My joy in dancing with David Bowie cannot be written.)

I think he’s in excellent shape, so strong and graceful, especially for someone old and sick and dead.

We decide to play together the next day, like children, in the now post-party-empty apartment.

I know our time is precious because he is dead.

In the early evening, as the light is fading in the apartment, we settle into a small white bed and he says, I think we should make love. It’s what we were intending to do all along.

I had not thought that of it but I am now sure that it is true; we had been planning to make love.

He takes off his shirt, revealing a band of iridescent orange around his waist like an obi. At first I think it is make-up or a tattoo but upon closer examination, I realize that it is a birthmark.

Then I am naked and he kisses my breasts. I gently guide him to them because he is growing blind. We must make love quickly before he completely fades into death.


Dream of the Drawing for Everything alchemies dream-like things: images and texts and films and sketches and philosophy and half-thoughts and visions and moments and fragments of all kinds. Resting and exploring here may deepen your relationship with the oneiric and, therefore, all apparent reality. Resting and exploring here may augment your psyche’s healing tendency—as Jung called it—through highlighting and delighting in humanity’s hallucinatory creations. (Without them, after all, neurologists assure us we would go starkers.) It is time there was a potentially infinite, intimate museum to what cannot be seen. Welcome to the museum.

Dream of the Drawing for Everything is some of the collaboration between artist Nuala Clarke & writer Crystal Gandrud. Our work arises out of what dances on the edges of perception and our collective attention gravitates to the dream-like nature of human experience. We have been in collaboration since 2010. Our merged practices of visual and textual art unfold on a continuum, as part of an interconnected series evolving over time. Both performed “Fair Shouldered One” (a book which is not a book) at the &Now Literary Festival in Paris, 2012 and installed “Between Spaces”, a Yeats inspired dreamscape at the Hamilton Gallery, Sligo, 2013. Most recently participated in the Find Arts Project in Castlebar, Ireland. Our public art installation of words and images printed on linen, “Woven Found”, hung on Castle Street. The project won the best commissioning practice award from Allianz Business to Arts, 2014.

Nuala Clarke

Nuala Clarke, visual artist, lives and works between Co. Mayo and New York City. Educated at the National College of Art and Design in Dublin, she moved to New York City in 1993. In September 2007, she received a fellowship to the Ballinglen Arts Foundation, Mayo and began returning to Ireland from NY to work every year. Clarke has been represented by Boltax Gallery, NY since 2005. Recent shows include, Amid a Space Between: Irish Artists in America at the SFMoMa Artists Gallery, San Francisco, (2012); to Tremble into Stillness, a WB Yeats related show at Hamilton Gallery, Sligo; RHA invited artist; and A drawing for Everything, Ballinglen Arts Foundation (2013). BLINK, a public art installation at the Westport Arts Festival, Co. Mayo (2014). Upcoming shows (2015): Impressions of Yeats, Hamilton Gallery, Sligo; Of this place, Sligo and Madrid.

nualaclarke@gmail.com

Crystal Gandrud

Crystal Gandrud, writer, lives in New York City and Normandy, France. She holds an MFA, Creative Writing and a BFA, Classical Theatre. Recent publications include “Yeatsian: Numberless Dreamers,” The Encyclopedia Project, 2014, “Here,” Lost Magazine, and “Idiom: Woodbird Flies Early,” The Encyclopedia Project. Her dissertation, “Murdoch: the Mandala Maker,” was presented at Kingston University’s Iris Murdoch Conference (2006), London. At the most recent Murdoch Conference, she performed a multi-media excerpt from a work-in-progress entitled “The Forgotten Man,” inspired by Murdoch’s philosophical writings. She is under contract for a memoire entitled “Astonishment: A Litany of the Uncanny.”

gandrud@actuallyorange.com

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